There's something that I really need to figure out.
Oddly enough, it has to do with the thing that I've been doing for the last three-and-a-half years - writing music.
What I need to figure out is this: What is my process?
Weird... you would think that after almost four years of focus on writing music, I would know how I go about it. But, that isn't the case.
I write in different ways, for where I am at. Literally, my technique differs based on my physical location - near a piano (or musical instrument [not counting voice - I'll get to that...]), with just paper, with only a computer and no piano keyboard...
At all these places, I work differently. The important question is: Is that bad?
I can't answer that. I might need some people to chime in on this for me, but I don't think it's a problem. But I've been wrong before.
In other, less philosophical news...
I got very little done today that I wanted to. I was going to clean the apartment (it needs tidying...), but instead wrote for about two hours, watched TV, a movie, and had breakfast/lunch/dinner (it was one meal today - eek!)
I'm loosing focus with my life, I fear. I know what I want, but I don't feel the want/drive to get there like I used to. Which means I need to ask my self, "What has changed to make this happen"?
And right now, I can't answer that.
Ah well... maybe I just need to get back to a normal schedule. The University of Idaho School of Music hasn't really had a "normal" week of classes since the second week of the semester - what with the snow days (which was nice!), professors going here and there... and me breaking my wrist didn't help my schedule feel normal, in anyway, shape or form.
I need to stop rambling, and go to bed. Sleep is important, and I think that I haven't been getting enough in the last two weeks or so...
Now Listening: "Dust in the Wind" - Point of Know Return - Kansas; "From the Wreckage" - Mass Effect - Jack Wall; "Roar (Cloverfield Overture) - Cloverfield - Michael Giacchino; "Hold Tight!" - Sahara - Clint Mansell
1 comment:
hey bro when you figure out how to get the drive back into your life let me know, cause i am currently working in a coffee shop...and living with mom and dad...yeah so i need some help too.
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